Day 49

2021, half-year evaluation


Hello everyone, or good evening?

A half-year just finished this year so far, and I feel the time flies so fast. How have you been doing in these 6 months?

In this blog today, I would like to write down what I felt and learned in these 6 months.

【 Forgive 】

Looking back on these 6 months, I was supported by many people for my art opportunities.

I can’t thank you enough for each experience and opportunity I have had so far.

I also had Creator’s Market in Nagoya in June, that was also a good experience to know that there are people for sure who empathise with my art and its concept. That fact gave me confidence in creating artwork even for the future.

On the other hand,

I tended to forget to rest and care for my health and mental as I was lost in time.

So that I couldn’t do what I had normally done.

That was irresponsible of me.

And more, this is a bit more personal… but I have this bad habit that I tend to think of everything as “MUST”, which ends up putting strict ordeal on other people and myself. Then eventually it gets to a totally negative outcome.

I felt that kind of situation often in this half-year.

Under such circumstances, one of my older friends told me that...

“Forgive yourself more.”

I felt somehow lighter around my chest which had been holding something very heavy.

As I couldn’t forgive myself that I was always stuck with what was bad and what was wrong.

After all, only guilty and stress remain in me… which was just simply a negative chain.

That’s is why I want to tell myself from now on that “I forgive myself and let’s make the mistake good use next time!”. So that it allows me to change my mind.

For the rest of this year, I will try to be kind to myself, everyone around me, and the society.

And that is how I would like to create art.

In this modern society,

In this world that evaluates you by the rules and justice someone made,

No one is supposed to forgive you.

You are the one who forgives yourself.

Ok! That’s it for today!

In the next blog, I will write about what was my last project and how I worked on the project as that work was the main reason how I got offers from universities. (As I mentioned in the last blog..sorry for the sudden change this time!)

Thank you for reading my blog until the end!

See you next week and have a great weekend (^D^)/~♪