Day 4

Why is that goal?

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Hello everyone, and Good afternoon.

In the last blog, I shared about a poem I came across that day.

Today, I want to talk about "the reason why I set that goal". I'm going to share "my history" to talk about it.

To be honest, I didn't know where I should start from.. but I found out that the time in Kindergarten is the beginning of how I end up with that goal. So, I'd like to start from there!

【The beginning】

When I was in kindergarten, I was very "outstanding" in a bad way. I was much bigger than people around. There is a trigger that I started thinking that my look is "not good". It was probably a cloudy day.., one year older boy gave mean words to me, which is something bad about my body and look. That was the first time people said to me some bad words. I remember that moment very clearly still now.

However, I tried to ignore them and concentrate on being a leader of the class. I thought it made sense at the time as there was a weird stereotype of tall people should lead the team around that time.

After entering elementary school, there are more people started saying such bad words to me, just because I was big and fat. That had made me think about my body, how I look, and the reason of my existence every single day.

probably, it is common for everyone to have such experience. People give you hate speech, bad rumour, and their nonsense judge about you, but it is normal in this world. I'm sure I am not the only one who is experiencing such hard time.

But, hurting someone isn't OK. Both people who bullied and people who were bullied need to overcome such past experience, and they need to keep living. I guess we all understand it by being adult.

Ok, I'll stop here as it's getting longer and propbably making you tired..lol
You might think "So? what then?" .. I'll share more story that connects to the goal on the next blog.

Thank you for reading till the end!
See you next week!